thoughts

They always know how to get you. smash you against the wall and kick you in your belly. twist your arm that its broken. they make you feel miserable, alone. no one to help and no one to see. helpless like a young fox caugt by some merciless beast ready to kill. at the moment you think help is gone, no one left to safe you and you think life ends, something, someone, is just on time to rescue you from a death that is so horrible that no one ever wants to die in such a way too. ruthless killers, broken smiles.
there the angel steps in, and im not saying god is my religion, but its true. at the mment of total desperation nature's defence systems shake of the dust and roll out their paws. they will help you survive. hard work, total exhaustion, its worth it.
my defence rolled out and stepped up the last month. two people I know died, one close related person got sick and I got thrown away by some fool who thought my issues were not important enough to solve. but I got defence. it stretched and saved my tears, pain, and made me feel good again. Love came by, and decided to stay for a little while, who knows for how long.
but this life is celebration. its designed to smile, designed to party. Designed to enjoy the smaller things, but also the greater ones. The nature of living will always stay and we'rust predators, fighting to survive. We will survive. Whether if its alone, together, dead or alive, we'll make it. and there's no one to stop me.
for now and forever we'll smile. and never surrender.
amen.

burried

While death continues
Our soles are bare
No words to describe
The loss we bear.

And I dont understand
Why this is real
Our life
But Their death.

The most amazing people in the world
Seem to lose everytime
Unexpected,
undefined.

The joy of life is gone
No one to understand
That death came too quickly
Give them back, I goddamn demand.

They once made my world
And now its broken
No smile, no tear,
There's no life without you, I swear.

You, you should be right here
Standing next to me
There wouldnt be a tear,
There'd just be an amazing smile.

Dark ages are the boss of life now
I wont ever be able to see
How i changed, you changed
How we changed.

Im locked up
Got a life long detention
But I dont mind
Because I just dont understand.

balance

To see the past and immediate future,
makes the world go round and round,
balanced in the perfect shadow,
To see the light with hope and glow.

nights unravel mysteries together,
hoping for the day to live,
nrver will my mind stop searching,
for the thing the light can give.

the nigt shows a sudden hint of fear,
Standing alone and I just shed a tear,
for now I'll stay in the middle,
of day, night and amazement, here.

just something.

Like the heart never skips a beat,
it will always be the same.
life comes, life disappears,
and there's not a damn thing we can do about it.

but the joy of life will never be lost,
it will always be the amazement of the thing.
if t's a door, a chair or a dog,
scaryness or happyness.

because, I'm happy when my fellow humans are happy,
I will help them in their joy of life.
And disguise myself and my feelings,
because I know they'll come round sometime again.

for howlong we live,
and enjoy the things somebody likes to give,
It will always that little star right there in the universe,
that makes life not a terrible relationship with devotion in reserve.

Enjoy the moment.
live the day.
love the feelings,
that will always stay.