you vs me

'sorry'
I said
turned on my heels and walked away.

See you standing there
shocked
guess you didn't expect this.

I guess I look like I know what I'm doing
but I don't
just follow my instincts, telling me to get away

You were not good for me
You made me cry
I hate you

everyday gets harder
without your arms around me
every single day

I still see your face,
covered with tears
streaming down your face

yesterday our love was true and undefined
today it is gone,
out of sight.

You asked me
'Will you ever knock on my door again,
will you ever come back?'

I said I don't know,
while I stood there
and shook my head.

'Sorry'
I said,
turned on my heels and walked away.

control

Give me your hand
let me take control
nothing will happen.

Lift your foot
lean forward
walk

Run, you, run
straight into my arms
don't be scared.

Faster, run faster,
Let's not take it slow
Let's make this quick

But you pass me
run away
tears, only tears

am I not important,
if that is so,
why am I not?

tears pooling in my eyes
streaming down my face
But I keep my faith

turn my back
lift my head
walk away

but there are your arms
holding me tight
'I love you'

and I know we're alright
we will survive
just hold me tight.

drown

The smile, the smell, the face
the dwell

the love, the cell, the prison
the hell

as your toe
touches the rippled
water

your underwear, your dress
your hair, lips, eyes
your sex

floating like a jellyfish
poisonous, ugly, beautiful
struggle to keep your breath

your heart, your veins, your death
coming close
as you open your mouth

your underwear, your dress
it's not you
you're dead.

Breakdown of Love

The face that made a thousand ships sail
Made the world
Devoted with competion.

Battles were lost
And won
The face's desinterest.

Only one can win
He's not even a sailor
The face that made a thousand men run.

Written from her hand
Words,
On paper.

How she loves the adoration
Adores the love
Hates the competition.

The love of a running man
Made her tame
Burning the fire.

Secrets
The words on her lips
'thank you'.

The breakdown of the face
Was agony
Agonized with disaster.

As she breathed her last words
How she loves him
'hold my hand'.

Boom, kaboom.
Her heart fighting
Her body radiating.

How he died
How we died

How she dies.

- Cyresse

love

why is there such thing as love?
Love drives you crazy like all the time. Makes you feel insecure, and after all, you mostly get hurt by some random stranger who accidentally took your heart with him as he passed by. Now, I don't say here that I hate love. I love, love. It's a magnificent feeling and that feeling is like a drug. Therefore, if drugs are forbidden, why shouldn't love be?
It makes you blind, hard fact. It makes you blind in various forms; If your lover is texting you while you are performing some kind of action that involves traffic, work or something like that, you can get distracted easily. A couple of days ago one of my potential, maybe future lovers texted my while I was cycling. Well, that was not something of a plan and I almost ran over a pretty mature lady. Oops. many excuses later, I figured it would be a lot safer to the world if I just keep my hands off my phone while being in traffic. Maybe more people should do that, I know I'm not the only one!
But now I still don't know why love exists.
I guess it's just the mystery why two, or three, people can get attracted to one an other so easily. I guess it fulfills one of our oldest needs; to not be alone in a world that is so demolishing and so strange that we would have no clue at all how to live this life in such a silly world. Well yeah. The satisfaction you get from having sexual intercourse with someone else is also one of the greater joys in life, not?
so. conclusion to save you all some time, if you are smart enough to skip the middle-piece and just immediately read these lines; there is no answer.

Published on the 15th of march by Cyresse.

Valentijnsdag, de dag der verplichtingen.

het on-overtroffen, verwachte gevoel dat iedereen krijgt als de tijd van Valentijn weer nabij is, De hoop dat iemand toch nog een kaartje of een roos zal krijgen, is gewoon een gevoel omdat Valentijn toevallig vast in het rooster staat. Net als vakantie, als je weet dat je binnen twee weken vakantie heb, dan ga je er naar verlangen en wil je alleen maar meer. Het idee van een Valentijn op Valentijnsdag is natuurlijk perfect, de nationale dag der liefde delen met de persoon van wie jij denkt die perfect is, is alleen maar wonderbaarlijk. Als ze de klas binnen komen met een roos speciaal voor jou, of als je thuis komt en er ligt zo'n roze envelop op je te wachten, klaar om jou zijn mooiste, zoetste en liefste woorden te onthullen is de droom van elk meisje. En dan vraag ik me af, hoe zou dat zijn bij jongens? Valentijnsdag als verplichting, of echt als een gevoel? Als in alle films, waar mannen opeens op miraculeuse wijze tóch nog, op het laatste moment natuurlijk, verliefd worden op het meisje die zo overdreven droomt over haar dwarrelende gevoel, en haar zijn liefde laat zien, dan zou alles anders zijn.
Stel, iedere jongen was Ashton Kutcher en liet zijn rozen vallen in het water voor dat ene speciale meisje, was de wereld toch bijna wel perfect. Maar ik denk, dat de liefde van mannen, ook op valentijnsdag, niet verder gaat dan de voetbal die heen en weer rolt en vliegt tussen Real Madrid en Barcelona, niet verder gaat als de gulp die misschien wel open staat en vooral niet verder gaat als het schouder ophalen naar weer zo'n aanhankelijk meisje die hunkert naar aandacht van de man.
Maar, omdat het in het rooster staat, net als vakantie, blijft het toch een speciale dag. Een dag die echt verliefde stellen misschien wel elke dag beleven, maar op 14 februari toch wel een beetje een verplichting word.
Dus, wie kies jij?

luck

There we went
Together
Told me to sleep on your shoulder
And we arrived

Somewhere new
Invisible
City of dreams without limits
Together, head to shoulder

Gentle breeze of your breath
Comforting
Your soft, male voice in my ear
There is no time

But then I lose you
Uncontrolled
See you walk away
And I shock

Open my eyes
Gasping
As I turn my head,
Eyes filled with tears

Realise it was just a dream
Fortunately
And we're still here
Side by side.

fact

i always feel like Im not needed
that everyone can make it without me
and it is true,
life's just an addition to someone else's.

then stop trying
eventhough its hard
because where will they be
if you need them some day?

happening

From the corner of my eye
I saw your glance
When being in the middle of all people
You made my understand

drove me crazy
made me go wild
and it was not just the alcohol
But this was what we both have ubderstand

Will never forget the memory
will never forget the feeling
but will close my mouth
and keep the urge within

dont say there aren't any people
desperate for their need
Trying to combine theirs with mine
but I don't feel it

what I saw
was something I can live on
Months, years, hours, seconds
eventhough you didn't mean it.

girls are sensitive
and so am I.
never will I change that thing
that is, and always be mine.

love? no.
Just for one night.
As quick as it came
It was gone, out of sight.

doubtful

the never ending search
for the hidden scar deep inside
makes the process
a miracle, tonight.

a night filled with stars
hiding behind big, furry clouds
thats how much I love you
thats how hard I shout.

because the fingers of the trees
join the merciless fall of water
and the grass obeys
to the heavy pressure of pain

Animals keep on running
miles and miles away
hiding for the fear
that a predator might, make them prey.

because I'm the predator
and you're my prey
faster than the winds I will run
fall, but never say

I will, in the end get you
for now or some day else
try to make you feel
how I feel, about you now.

pronounce my feelings
in such a way
You could understand them
and make you stay

I thought nothing was impossible
But in fact this one is
You wanted to make the best of it
But I, didn't want to stay.

Im scared of my feelings
Im scared to show me
your hand was so close
but too far, to reach me

and now Im running
just like the animals did
hiding for whats left to come
my feelings will conquer me

make me the ugliest ruin
that will ever exist
but I wont show it
just like you once did

Never will you come back to me
or never shall I return
we both will be thinking
of the time that we once burned